So I signed up for Nano. *makes Nano tag*

As of just now, I have NOOOOO idea what I'm going to write. D: I'm sure I'll think of something.

...My parents got married today. I had no idea they weren't already married until earlier this month. O:

In other news, this is the most terrifying thing I've seen in a long time.

I wish I could get over this cloud of emo mood that's been plaguing me these past few weeks(months?). I don't think it's normal practice to burst into tears while watching Kiki's Delivery Service.

Also, I've been fighting a losing battle with my fishtank lid these past few weeks. The lights are busted, and even though I've changed both bulbs and both starter plugs, the goddamn thing STILL isn't working. Sigh. (The tank gets sunlight for part of the day, though, so the plants won't die at least.)

On the bright side, I got the DVD of Kung Fu Panda while buying the new starter plugs, and that film is pure distilled pretty-art-style-eye-candy artistic inspiration for me. I might go looking for the art book when I've got the money for it. Plus, I finally got that Japanese Peace Lilly I wanted. My room is kind of starting to resemble a rainforest. XD Including my mum's pepper plant, I have seven pots with plants in them in here now. Sure, the sensitive plant is basically dying, but the parlor palm contains an unidentified trailing plant with green-and-white leaves as well and I'm on the lookout for another Venus fly trap, so.

And on the brighter side yet, I finally got VLC player to screencap properly without crashing! OH GOD, THE POWER. I AM TOTALLY WATCHING ALL MY ANIMATED FILMS (All four of them excluding the Ghibli films? Oh how ambitious of you Holly) AGAIN SOMETIME SOON AS THAT BECOMES WAY MORE FUN WHEN I CAN STOP MID-MOVIE AND MAKE A RIDICULOUS ICON OR SILLY MACRO.

So did Daniel Radcliffe just win Eurovision? Because that guy looked a lot like Daniel Radcliffe.

It didn't suck this year, thankfully. The UK did better than I thought they really should have, but I blame Andrew-Lloyd-Webber for that. XD (ALSO WHY DID MY PARENTS AND BROTHER INSIST ON TALKING OVER SEVERAL SONGS? GAAAWD)

( LET'S DO BULLETPOINTS FOR THE SONGS THAT I LIKED THE BEST! )

On a completely unrelated note, WHY THE FUCK ARE INK DIP-PENS SO HARD TO DRAW WITH AAAAAAAAARGH *RAGEQUITS THEM FOR THE DAY. AGAIN.*

Oh hey, remix of a really old icon! Now it is pretty. :D

Anyway, have an update.

( LJ Cut Function Update: I'm still using it. )

So, good news on the Jewelery-selling front! I made a ton of money in two hours - over £100, not sure of the full amount though seeing as I had a few things reserved.

However, whatever joy I had over my success there was swiftly crushed by this FUCKING virus I've been battling the past few days. DX

I had no idea Jollyjack worked on the new Banjo-Kazooie game! Fffffffff, now I REALLY wanna play it. :B

I have finally... FINALLY... cleared my DA messages.

Now to let them build up to +700 again! 8D

I'm feeling the pain of not having Mind Over Mutant yet, but hopefully I'll be able to do chores for money tomorrow and get it. BUT OF COURSE PW3 IS ALSO OUT SO I WILL HAVE TO CHOOOOSE.

(Sorry, coffee-swilling hot dude, gonna have to go with the cartoony colorful game first. I need to put my new toy through its paces some more. 8D)

Six hours in the cold and wind and only two. Goddamn. Sales.

If you need me I'll be over here being emo. D:

Turns out I have two weeks to get ready for the Stockbridge village festival.

Things that must be done, besides the obvious "make moar jewelery to sell":
-Finish pinboard case. Get cork tiles, velvet. Also, possibly paint the outside.
-Get boxes, from the same place as usual.
-Calculate prices. The thought of this part alone makes me weep.
-????
-PROFIT!

Last night I had a nightmare about the nib on my tablet pen breaking.

It was horrible.

There was also something about the local council keeping pandas in cages in the local parks and grizzly bears and the odd polar bear roaming the non-street areas of the city freely (cycle paths, allotments and the like), but what stuck in my mind most was the tablet pen thing.

So I got a Tegaki thingy. Wheeeee! 8D

...Oh yeah, PP15th. It's fun. :B I only just today finished all the story modes (with S ranks 'cause I'm a perfectionist) but I think there might be more stuff to unlock in there somewhere. That and survival mode is mighty damn fun and awesome. Also LOL PRINCE OF OCEAN USES BUTLER AS A HUMAN SHIELD by the way I am so shipping those two now, at least when the Prince is in human form

...Also, Oshare's "YEAH BITCH I JUST OFFSETTED ALL OF YOUR ATTACK" pose is possibly the most badass pose he has yet had. NEED SCREENCAP. D:

I saw National Treasure 2 last week, too, but I can't remember much about it other than the fact that the geeky loser sidekick was totally awesome. I probably need to see it again. :B

I'll babble on and on more later, when I have more to say. XD

Want to know what the easiest and best thing ever to draw with is, in my opinion?

It's a Biro, or whatever else you might call a cheap ballpoint pen.

Srsly. There's something about drawing with a Biro that neither a pencil, or a gelpen, or a techpen, or charcoal can emulate for me.

The only way they could make a Biro any better to draw with is to have easier-to-find narrow tip versions. I have one clicky-pen style Biro that has half the line width of a normal biro and it's wonderful to draw with. Sadly, I don't know what company made it because the actual biro part was from a broken clicky pen and all I did was replace the casing. D: I would kill for another of them for when that one runs out of ink.

Today, I found a conjoined sycamore key, and I don't mean like two with seperate seed compartments, this is one seed with two wings. It looks like a rabbit's head. :B

...I think I just figured out how to imitate some Painter Classic effects in Photoshop! :D *unreasonably overjoyed*

...I need to either find a suitable picture for a new LJ layout, or I need to MAKE one. >_>

I'm realising that I'm drifting further and further away from what I want to do artistically (draw), and more towards what I also want to do but nowhere near as much as I want to do the other thing(making jewelery).

I really want to draw instead, but I haven't properly done it in weeks. I used to draw daily. Nowadays I'm lucky if I can eke out a doodle every few days, and if I'm honest with myself the jewelerymaking is just as slow.

I don't want it to be this way. I want to draw more, but it's like my creativity is oozing out of my ears. I'm barely motivated to do anything.

On top of this, I'm feeling more and more like I'm a useless emotional wreck who'll never get anywhere. I feel... I dunno... overstimulated. stretched too thin over so many activities I want to do.

I want to be better than what I am, but I don't know if I care enough to make myself that way anymore.

I don't want to settle for how things are now.

But I can't motivate myself to change anything.

So I might be getting a £1000 grant for my jewelery-making enterprise. 8D

Also, I got a new ratbaby today. Black almost-hooded one. It's pretty unanimous that we're calling her Lilli. 8D She's got a big chunk out of her ear, but I think it builds character.

And now, I'm crawling off to bed and hibernating.

Yeah... I feel like such a dramaqueen now. But I feel better for it. :D

THIS ADVERT NEEDS TO HAVE ALAN BLUMENFELD DOING THE VOICEOVER.

...The scary thing is, that's the brand of milk I use. XD

Anyway, before bed, "normal" things.

My gourami died on Wednesday... I only just got around to blogging it. D: I'm kinda glad he's dead at last, though. It wasn't a nice way for a fish to live, gasping at the bottom of the tank like that. D: He got the last laugh on me by escaping the little isolation tank and getting back into the main tank to die, though. meaning I had to stress the hell out of the other fish by fiddling around with a net, failing then giving up with the net and diving in with my arm. D: Rest in peace, Boyd!fish. I dunno if I'll replace him with anything though.

Also, I sold some of my jewelery! :D Three pairs or earrings for £15. I'm gonna miss the amber and jade ones though. D:

That girl doesn't seem to know when to quit. Look at this, then look at this.

...Kay, NOW I'm offended. :D That's not just character theft anymore, it's ripping off art.

I have a feeling there's a language barrier, though, so I'm gonna try using a filipino translator to note them and tell them off politely.

...I think I might be pissed off more if I even used the character design they stole from me anymore, but eh.


In other news, my blue dwarf gourami's been dying for nearly a fortnight now (laying on its side and gasping, not eating, etc). I wish I knew humane ways of euthanising fish... he looks all pathetic and sad. D: It's not a dignified way for a fish to go.


....I need to post more.

:D!!!

I GOT CHARACTER THEFTED! I'M FINALLY A POPULAR ARTIST!

I'm not the only one, though, and that makes it no longer funny. I need to figure out how to tell them off correctly. >(

My home internets are down and mum doesn't know how to connect my laptop to the modem. Don't expect me to be around much until my home internets is better.

This week has just turned out to be a pile of shitty shit shit with a side order of McShit. First my work troubles, then my female betta died, and now the internet is also dead? Oh fuck you, universe. FUCK you.

In better news, a bracelet I made is gonna be sold for £45. I am so looking into doing jewelery-making as a job now.

At least if I have no distracting internet, I might be more inclined to finish all my unfinished games... Also, my drawing away from the computer skills will be made more better.

[EDIT]:Shit, scratch the part about the internets. They're fixed. BUT MY WEEK WAS STILL SHIT. XO

AUGH. I finally finished that poster thing mentioned last entry. (OMG, I AM CAPABLE OF DRAWING THINGS WITHIN A TIME LIMIT) Imma burn copies to disk, play with the rats awhile then go to bed.

...One of my female bettas died on Tuesday. D: It was the hyper little albino-y one. Alas, never again will she chase food into the filter stream going ARGARGARGARGARGARG.

The lone baby betta's doing great, though. it's over double the size it was when it hatched. 8D

My work are getting me to design them a poster. MY FIRST REAL ARTSY WORK AHAHAHA!

In other news, I just found out that AE3 has a remix of the original Specter theme. SEX. Seriously. SEX. *needs to start playing that again*

I'll post a more worthwhile entry later, I promise. XD

Okay, I have a squillion things to do. So I shall post them here and stuff and hopefully I'll remember to get them done.

-Apply to that course on college site.
-Work on Portfolio.
-GET PAST THAT FUCKING MATADOR IN BLACK VELVETOPIA ARGH
-Draw some more Psychonauts fanart.
-Work on comic.
-Finish arttrade.
-Realign my sleeping pattern with the timezone I'm actually in.

...Who am I kidding, that last one's never gonna happen. XD

(150 INTERESTS IS NOT NEARLY ENOUGH, ELJAY. D:)

I just HAD to make this icon. XD Expect a "Special Delivery" one later.

This is gorgeous. I would kill to see an epic novel written in this universe. ;__;

In other news, I am so making a G-Man plushie. X3

Now I look at their incredibly sexy prompt list, I really want to do fanart50 now. But I don't want to ditch my fanart100 thing either, despite the stupid-long waiting period that's occured....ARGH! I also want to do drabbles100, but let's face it, I don't have enough time for that. D:

I mean... Fuck, man! How am I ever going to be able to compete with this? Or this, or this, or this, or this, or this, or this, or this, ooh don't forget this or this or this or-AHHH MY EGO! IT BURNED INTO A CRISPY PASTE!

Don't get me started on the Japanese artists I know of. D:

ART BLOCK. Shit.

Either that or I can't draw anymore. Trying to draw N.Gin all day and failing miserably because I don't like how I draw him anymore has made me think that. And I still want to draw him, despite the fact he appears to be a creativity drain. D:

If I get accepted, fanart100 might just kill me 'cause Gin is my prospective claim. XD

Meh, if CTTR doesn't cure me I'm going on a strict diet of Crash 2-3 till I'm better.

If anyone can find a decent-sized animated gif of the "Holy Crap. LIONS!" bus from the Kenya animation, I'd be grateful.

THERE ARE THREE ANIMATION STUDIOS PRACTICALLY ON MY BLOODY DOORSTEP (one of the sites of which can be found here and a site for a film the one of the other ones did can be found here) AND I DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT THEM.

I FEEL SUCH A STUPIDHEAD.

D:

Cleaning does that to me. ;_;

the concept of B*Daman sickens me even worse than the concept of Beyblade. Really, it does. B*Daman is ANIME-GLORIFIED MARBLES. You can't get more stupid than that.

In other news, I arted! Sort of, anyway! :O I did something else but I'm not showing it until later because I don't want to bandwagon, at least not so soon. XP

My anatomy skills... are shit. ._.

*Goes to ask mum for some GOOD anatomy books for Christmas. Animal anatomy ones as well as human ones.*

EDIT:Yay, Christmas icon! XD

Ahahaha I'm watching Balto 2 on TV (How do you make a sequel to something based on a true story? O_o) and Balto's daughter sounds like Nina. Whuch gives me an image of Boris as N.Gin.

I'M INSANE. :DDDD

And now, a meme from wolfspecter.

Comment with a reference pic and I'll draw you the character that's in the pic. When you get your pic, post this message in your journal.

Gah, I am full of rage that this isn't gonna be ever made. It looks utterly awesome, and I've never even seen a Hitchcock film. D:

Also, I have reason to belive my tablet pen may be dying somewhat. Which really isn't that surprising, considering I've had it for something like 2-3 years now and use the pen for just plain browsing too. D: